Almost

It's almost time. Time to move. In a little more then 48 hours I will be on a plane again to a new location in my life, a new adventure :-) looking for new things, new feelings, new ways to look at the world, new experiences. Slowly but surely I'm starting to get excited. I didn't pay much thought about it until yesterday. It always looked far in the future... Not anymore. I wish my feelings were going haywire in all directions (at least I would have had excuses for whatever I need excuses right now ;-)) like they used to, but I learned to manage them and not let them control me. The one thing that poeple do without thinking was for a control freak unthinkable. My brain keeps them in control. Lets them be felt and expressed but doesn't let them make me lose my head and forget all the chores and errands I have to do before I can put myself on the plane without worrying that I left loose ends. Sure there will be loose ends (and I already know of a couple of them) but not anything I will feel might make the world behind me crumble and be left with nowhere to come back too. I know I'm exagerating but old habits die slow and there was a time that I felt that the world behind me crumbled when I move forward. I will try and make a better job in keeping the blog uptodate by posting as often as possible.
until next time...